Day 14. I made it two weeks. And each day has been completely different from the last and the next. My ego is falling away more and more every day as I step into my authenticity. It isn't that I despise my ego or think that my ego is the enemy - and in fact it's quite the opposite. By embracing my ego and loving it for all the ways it has served me in the past, I'm allowing it to have less of a "hold" on me. I'm just not listening to the bullshit anymore - or the stories or the limiting beliefs. Instead I'm co-creating my own new reality and making the decision, every single day, to live it. No, this isn't always easy and a lot of these past 14 days have been spent with me feeling pissed, angry, sad, lonely, disappointed, discouraged, challenged, and vulnerable to points that I didn't think I was capable of surviving. But I'm doing it. Every single day I am choosing, again, to do it.
Tonight, I saw my sexy side. I got in front of a camera, naked - and for three hours allowed myself to be photographed. With my naked body fully visibile - and not to mention my hard nipples. And I just owned it. I owned every part of my naked body - even the areas that until tonight, were even hard for me to look at. I saw myself as a sexual, excited woman - and not as a scared, shy little girl. And I realized in all of that - that I am way too sexy to keep letting my ego run the show. I am too sexy for my ego.
I will post a full description of the nude shoot tomorrow - and add one of the less naughty photos.
Tomorrow is another day - and the process continues.
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