Self-Expression 32-Day Process: Day 13 - My Heart is Enough

13 days in and my life is changing, officially.  It isn't that my external reality is shifting much in the sense that my life doesn't really look any different physically - but the way it feels and the way I am experiencing things is quickly changing.

As this process continues and as I parallel it with my mantra experiment, things are literally just stripping down one layer at a time.  Things in my life that I told myself I would just "tend to later" are coming up to the line with full force, almost begging to be handled.  And handled right NOW.  Even the little secrets that I have kept inside and knew were safe are finding their way forward and exposing the bigger picture to me.  It feels like a popcorn popper.  For a while the kernels are just kernels and then slowly and one at a time, the kernels pop and out comes a piece of popcorn.  But then it becomes quicker and quicker and then all of a sudden there are lots and lots of pieces of popcorn coming forward until ALL of the kernels are popped.  That's what these bubbling awarenesses feel like.  It's like I started the process of making popcorn and even if I think I've popped enough - the process is going to come to completion whether I want it to or not.  Even (seemingly) little things like a crush, are becoming things that need to be worked out.  Because really, every little thing coming forward is representing something much, much larger.

I guess what was the most inspiring truth to come forward for me today is that my heart is enough.  Instead of backing away from my heart and putting my hands up to protect myself, I am embracing it.  Instead of turning and running from what my heart is showing and telling me, I am reaching out and wrapping my arms around it and allowing it to be one with me.  It's like my soul and my heart are coming to some form of agreement - and my mind is beginning to understand.  My heart is enough.  I don't need to change anything or be someone else or be prettier or skinnier or sexier or younger or more spiritual or fancier or even have a different haircut.  What REALLY matters is the beauty of what's INSIDE my heart.  My loving, giving, nurturing, beautiful, kind, free-spirited and HAPPY soul.  My heart that wants to love and give and receive and be of service.  My heart who wants to share gratitude and love and kind words without feeling ashamed of exposing my true feelings.  My heart is enough, just as it is.  I am enough.  I am enough, just as I am.