Authentic Self-Expression 32-Day Process: Day 2

Today was the second day of my 32-day process of exploring and expressing my self-expression, feelings, and whatever else that means.  Last night I had the honor of reading some of the most beautiful writing that both impressed, inspired, and touched me deeply.  I felt a tug at my heart as I read the eloquent and vulnerable self-expression of someone else, because it was in that where I could see a beautiful reflection of my own self-expression.  Meaning - if I could see and feel such a beautiful energy in his writing, it means that I can see and feel that same beauty somewhere inside myself as well.  For some reason, I made a decision to hide that beauty, many years ago - and this 32-day process is an opportunity for me to re-awaken to who I am.  And it came to my realization that I am the only person standing in my way of really just allowing myself to BE myself - and learning what that means.  And letting go of any obstacles that I put in my own way (i.e. my EGO).

This morning, I woke up feeling giddy with the idea that I had a whole day in front of me to really allow my expression to come out and play.  And today while I was with a client, I really allowed myself to be vulnerable and open up and each word that came out of my mouth was one that I really meant and wanted to say.  I took moments and paused when I wasn't sure what to say.  Instead of saying what I thought I should say (as I did in the past), I experimented with taking a minute to center myself and then when I did speak, I felt a connection between my mind and my soul.  My words felt aligned with what I was REALLY feeling.  How cool!

And then tonight, I went to a party and on the drive over, I wondered what it would feel like to just be my open, bubbly, happy, excited, energetic, sexual, funny, fun and loving SELF.  For the first time in a while I just didn't "care" what anyone thought of me and allowed myself to "come out of my shell" and you know what?  It was an amazing and LIBERATING experience for me!  It felt so GOOD to open myself up to the vulnerability of authentic connection, both with myself and others.  I really feel my deep commitment to this process and am excited for the next 30 days!

And as an added bonus to move towards the release of 2012 and the embrace of 2013, tomorrow I am beginning a 31-day mantra experiment - with the intention of releasing any obstacles that I am putting in my own way.  What I do know, is this experience can only add positivity to my journey into exploring and expressing myself.